The Toughest Days of My Entire Life

I remembered what happened exactly 5 days ago like it just happened yesterday. I woke up so late that I was only thinking I was doomed for my next paper because I didn't study much the night before. I waited for my friends to go for lunch at about 2 pm. After lunch, I had a call. An unknown number. I thought this was probably another "You've got the wrong number" call. How wrong I was. It was Sandra's cousin, Yvonne, asking me whether I was in Melaka or not and informed me that she was involved in a car accident. After saying no and giving another friend's number who was in Melaka, I messaged to ask what really happened and I wanted updates. She wasn't exactly sure either so I had to wait. About an hour later, I received another message from my friend, Sheryl, asking me whether I was in Melaka. I told her I generally knew what happened and asked for an update. The next message was one I wished I never received. It said "She passed away". I froze. I was in total shock. I didn't know what to do. I kept thinking it wasn't true. I didn't reply because I didn't want to believe it. Then, a call came that was most heart-wrenching. Ai Fang called me later and confirmed it. She asked me to stay calm before she said it. I was. Only until the call ended. I couldn't contain myself from breaking down. It was so hard to take, so terribly painful. I was all alone in my room, staying there right until dinner time where I hid my emotions that my housemates didn't suspect something was amiss. A few calls and messages came that night. Telling me to be strong and reminding me of keeping focus for the next paper. The next 2 days were unbearable. All the memories kept rushing by. My exam on Saturday wasn't the toughest paper. But after what had happened, it seemed the toughest I ever did. I never mentioned it, but I want to thank my brother because he broke a record traveling time from my uni to Melaka just for me to make it for her funeral on time because he knew how much she means to me. When I arrived, I couldn't help but tear up when I saw her mom and sisters. A hug of comfort didn't heal the pain. But her mom told me not to cry and told me to stay strong. Moments later while walking, I felt a pat on the shoulder. It was Wee Kiat. He knew how I felt the most and he was so supportive throughout the day. He was always by my side and how I thank him for that. And I thank the rest who were there as well and to those who showed encouragement including Ganesh who called from Russia. And special thanks to Yvonne, Jacqueline, Melanie and Christine. You girls told me wonderful things about her that reminded me of her joyful, fun, loving, caring, and beautiful personality that I loved. Sure, it is tough and painful but I know she's in a better place and in God's care.

In loving memory of the beautiful Sandra Wong
21 November 1988 - 14 January 2010

Have A Peaceful Rest, Dear

You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me believe in myself
You make me a better man
You are honest
You are my best companion
You make me feel better when I was down
You show me how to treat a girl better
You forgive me for all the wrong things I've done
You shower me with love and care
You are unbiased
You are competitive
You are fun to be with
You are special

And you will always have a place in my heart. Rest in peace, sweetie. I'll miss you so much.

Love,
Desmond

Farewell 2009, Hola 2010!

Yeah, I know this post is about 3 or 4 days overdue but what the heck. I didn't want to blog about anything actually but somehow this afternoon I was trying to remember what happened in 2009. Well, I think I remembered the important bits good enough. Here's to summarize what happened in 2009.

January
-Had my exams and did well. For the first time in a very long time I was satisfied with my results.
-Chinese New Year had less ang pau because Felix and Jason weren't around this time. =( And I spent less time gambling this time around.

February
-Valentine's Day? What Valentine's Day? Spent it alone. (Single already mah right??)

March
-Work started to pile up like hell but I was still procrastinating as usual. =)
-Celebrated Teng Siang's (met a new person - his gf Carmen) and Camie's 21st birthdays

April
-Celebrated Alex's 21st, met Ice (No, that's not her real name) who's awesome and always takes every compliment she can get (haha), accidentally spilled beer on someone, and saw my sis made Alex even more drunk at Pure Bar. =)
-Had a quiet celebration for Ching Yang's 21st. Went to watch football and thought Manchester United were gonna lose on his birthday (Yes, he supports that team I hate). In the end, Man Utd gave a footballing lesson to their opponents.
-Loss a beloved aunt. Didn't think it would have affected me emotionally as it did.

May
-Had my 21st birthday at home. Most of my closest buddies made it except for those who were studying in Australia. BAD drinking night, AN EVEN WORSE hangover!
-Got really sick just before exams. Thought it was H1N1.
-Exams. Screwed up this time but managed to pass all the papers.
-Lost a classmate to a car accident. Shows how life can be so fragile and short.

June
-The month that started the most boring 3 months of my life. Haha. Part time job till September.
-Started to treat Alex's house as a late night home. Play Winning Eleven on PS3 like nobody's business.
-If I'm not mistaken this was also the month I met more new people. Kevan's gf Lai Shan and Ching Yang's gf Carryn. First impression : both these girls are quite the opposite. One talks with the guys the other listens to the guys lame/dirty jokes. Haha!

July
-Felix and Jason came back for Felix's bro's wedding where he got waxed!
-Had the first taste of go-karting (please don't label Genting's as go-kart 'cause it's a freaking buggy ride). Enjoyed it but didn't want to pay that amount for it again.
-Broke my own record of eating sate celup (No, not proud of it but amazed by it). 1 night 40+ sticks with sis and her friends. 2 days later, 30+ sticks with my friends. (Awesome or not?) Vowed to exercise more often after that.
-Climbed Bkt Beruang for the 1st time. Panted the whole way up. =)
-Got myself a gift from my friends for my birthday. Confused? Lol. And got myself a new phone!

August
-Working was boring. Every week couldn't wait for Fridays to end and wished Sundays wouldn't come. Couldn't stop counting the days to the end of the part-time job.

September
-New semester and met more ang moh at my uni.
-Went KL for cousin's 21st birthday where he got ambushed by his friends with eggs and flour.
-Met Wee Kiat's gf Joyce. Seemed like I was the only one without one then. Lol

October
-Wee Kiat's 21st birthday and still won't forget Wee Kiat shouting "Best birthday ever!!" and will NOT step foot in Arena ever again!

November
-Kevan's 21st birthday celebration. Karaoke + Dinner + Pure Bar. Who could forget? Met Ice's sister, Qian who's just as awesome but somehow says I look like a politician. *shrugs*
-Sister's birthday. Drank a lot but didn't get wasted.
-Went to Poppy's to party. Drank really a lot again and didn't remember what happened after getting out of the club. And lost my specs. Lol.

December
-Work, work, work was what it was all about at the beginning of the month. Didn't get much sleep 'cause of it.
-Holidays. Everyday out for supper and gaming and movies and sometimes stay up so late have to go for breakfast and try to sneak back into the house before mum wakes up. (That last one didn't happen 'cause my mum is always up early)
-Christmas. Had a feast at my aunt's house until I could barely move. Lol
-New Year's Eve. This was the party of all parties! Nothing can top it. Unless we have another one in 2010 of course. Everyone was back including those studying Down Under and we had a truly awesome night!

There you go. My not-so-short summary of my 2009. 2010 is gonna be better I hope.